A New Book?

This year has been a little strange for me. I sort of feel like I closed the book on one part of my life and now starting another book. I've had parts/stages of my life that I've felt like it's a new chapter but this year feels different like all new.
Maybe cuz we are done having kids we have our three little ones now we get to watch them grow. Maybe it's cuz now I know for sure I'm strong and more confident about myself. Whatever the reason I feel like my life is beginning a new.

Another thing that has been weighing heavy on my mind is that this year marks ten years since my mom past. It also marks ten years till I'm the same age that my mom was when she found out she had breast cancer so I feel a bit at a cross roads tho it's not a type that I'm forced to choice one over the other, it's just straight on to whatever life has in store for us.

Round Three

Round One
About two weeks ago I went in the garage to do some laundry. I opened the door started to walk in when I heard a HIIISSS sound right by my ear, I turned to find a snake(black racer) right by my face(about an inch not even joking) it was going from the top shelf to the middle shelf of this unit that is right by the door. I stepped back and was jumping up and down going "O MY GOD! O MY GOD!" Now I'm not scared of snakes it just scared the hell out of me(that's putting it nicely). I then went on to call my father-in-law to come over and help me. Of course by the time he came over(which was only about 3 mins later) Mr. Snakie(as I've named him) was gone. I left the door open the rest of the day and any time I had to go into the garage I would open the door look in for him then go in. Mr. Snakie 1/ Me 0

Round Two
A few days later I again was doing some laundry and I saw his little head, hubby was home so I ran in the house to have him come try and get him out. M tried to grab Mr. Snakie but ended up pissing Mr Snakie off so he keep trying to bite M so M couldn't get him. Then Mr. Snakie managed to get away by going towards the front of the garage. Mr. Snakie 2/Me 0

Round Three
Today (again I was doing laundry) I heard Mr. Snakie close to my feet by the washer and dryer no less! He saw me and backed up to try and hide tho I saw him. I called my father-in-law but then went in the house to keep an eye on M while I waited, and Mr. Snakie managed to go hide somewhere else, I should have just stayed in there watching him so he didn't move.

So the total Mr. Snakie 3/Me 0....Next time!!

Time

Well it's been a month since I last posted not to bad I guess! Life has been.....crazy and heck it. Half the time it's almost 10pm before I get a real breather. I get moments here and there through out the day that I'll check my mail and check my forums for a few mins but nothing that I could really sit and do something. At the moment N and M are playing nicely, L is napping, and I don't have to start dinner for another 20mins so I'm taking this time to blog.

L is now 5 months old! Two weeks ago he was 16lbs 8oz, and he also get his first two teeth two days apart. He has rolled over, but only a handful of times, he's a very laid back baby! He LOVES to laugh and giggle. He also loves to babble and do raspberries which I still have no clue where he learned it from! He started solids a few weeks ago his fave(just like his siblings) is sweet potatoes. He's also had peaches, squash(which we think makes his eczema flare up), carrots, and avocado(which he HATES).

L 5 months old!

N turned 6! I can't believe he's that old! He's doing great in school and he loves it. He's learning so much. He also LOVES to learn about animals I mean really learn about them. He loves books that tell you all about the animals from were they live and what they eat to their physical attributes. And he loves learning about wild animals, sharks, snakes, lions, bats, bears, all those type of animals. He also loves to color! He's pretty much always drawing or wanting to watch a show about animals.

N coloring in his coloring pad he got from his best friend

M is doing pretty good too. She's been having some issues with not listening lately and also having drama over little baby things. Which has been very tiring on mommy's patience's. I'm starting to worry about what I'm going to do with her and preschool. Our preschooling this yr hasn't gone so well. Tho I'm sure having L hasn't helped at all, as we are all still trying to find a good schedule for everyone and everything. So do I do homeschooling Pre-K next yr(and I HAVE to be good about really doing school with her)or try and find a program for her. So that's were I am with that!

That's the short of life around here.

Resolutions

I need to write them out get them out there cuz I really want to keep them this yr!!
My Resolutions for myself
~Lose 10lbs(my end goal is more then that but if I can lose at lest 10lbs this yr I'll be happy)
~Send out my niece's and nephew's birthday cards/presents early!!
~Send out birthday cards to all the family members cuz I'm really bad about that!

My Resolutions for Bec's Bows
~Do some fun things for this yr
~Find ways to get more fans

Having No Blogging Love

I've thought about blogging many times over the last few months, but the desire has just been sucked out of me. The whole reason I started this blog was to make it easier for me to keep my family and close friends updated on the kids(mostly M since she was having so many things/dr appointments going on). More then anyone it was for my grandma since I was having a hard time finding a quite moment to call this way she could just jump online whenever she had time. Over the years I've been slacking but trying to update at lest every couple months. Since L came I was planning on being good and updating monthly about him. But that's the thing about plans they don't always happen.

At the end of Oct my uncle emailed me(and other family members)about how my grandma had been sick for a few weeks and has been in the hosptial. A few days later I emailed him back(since w/three kids it's hard to get a quite moment to hear or talk to anyone), I asked how she was and if she should get really bad let me know I would want to see her. He emailed me back saying she was finally eating, not much but eating so that was a really good thing. Then on Nov 9th(my mom's birthday) he called me to tell me she was getting worse and if I wanted to see her I should make plans to come pretty soon. At that time it seemed more like with in the next month come. The next 24hrs were just a world wind! After I talked to him I jumped on the computer tried to figure out a flight, where I could stay all that fun stuff. I had planned it for 4 weeks later since that was the cheapest. I called him back to let him know the plans when he let me know she had gotten really bad that night and I needed to make it sooner. We thought for a moment maybe that weekend, but since it was just a few days away the prices were crazy, so I planned for L and me to fly out the next weekend. She only made it a few more days to Monday the 15th, when I got the call from my brother she had passed away. I was and in all truth still am upset that I didn't get to see her or even talk to her to tell her L had been born. I'm sure my uncle told her, but I didn't get to. I hadn't talk to her since about 2months before L was born every other time I tried calling she didn't answer.

Anyways, my uncle was wonderful and held the funeral on the weekend since I would be in, plus it make it so one of my other cousins was able to drive in for it. It was a nice little ceremony. Since I've been home the kids and the holidays have kept me busy. Then add in that I really haven't(nor do I really have the emotional strength to) really truly deal and come to terms that my grandma-the last connection to my mom-is gone.

In short I haven't really felt like blogging nor did I feel like there is anyone left to read and care about it, but I've realized that really the blog is for me. If someone reads it that's wonderful(and thank you) if not it's ok!

Three Weeks Old

L will be 3 weeks old tomorrow, and I can't believe it! Part of me seems like it was just a few days ago we brought him home and the other part has a hard time remembering our family without him!

Trying some tummy time, he decided it was nap time again

It's been a busy 3 weeks for him. The poor little guy has been to the dr's once every week so far. Most of them all due to the fact that mommy seems to get way more worried about him then I ever was with his brother and sister. I don't know if it's cuz he's number three and our last or cuz of the scare of miscarrying with him when we first found out, we were surprise pregnant again! Anyways, here's what he's been up to his first 3 weeks of life!

At two days old we had his regular newborn check up, he was just a few ounces shy of being back to his birth weight. Then that Wednesday(at 7 days old) I took him back cuz he was still a little jaundice and I wasn't sure if it was ok or not. His belly button was also not healing right so they had to put some meds in it to help it heal. At 10 days old he wore his first cloth diaper! I was very excited, he's so cute in them. At 13 days we went back to the drs this time for his circumcision he was then 9lbs 4oz. At 16 days old we had to go back to the dr's to have them check his circumcision, which at that point it was still a little swollen, but the dr said it will go down in a few days. Well last night the swelling came back so today we went back to the drs, thankfully it's not infected just still swollen. We aren't sure why it seemed to go down then come back, but I'm just happy it's not infected! He now weights 9lbs 14oz, I can't believe he's already that big!

Cloth diapers
We are cloth diapering L and I'm pretty excited about it! Once his cord fell off I was finally able to use the cloth. Technically I could have used them before, but I was to worried they would rub on the cord and hurt it, so we waited. I got to use them for a few days till his circumcision then we used disposables again for a few days to let it heal some. Now we are back to cloth and it's really easy, and soo much cheaper!

L in his first cloth diaper(10 days old)

L is Finally Here!!

Last week I started getting lots of headaches and was going to bring it up to my dr at my next appointment on Thursday(the 26nd). On Tuesday(the 24th) after hubby and N had left to go to school and work and I had just doing some dishes and started to not feel well. I finished them up figuring my blood pressure was getting low and took my pressure. I was wrong it was really high(for me that is) so I figured I would just relax on the couch and see if I could get it to go down, meanwhile texting my friend to see what she thought. After 30 mins I took it again and it was down, but it was also about lunch time so I fixed M and me some lunch and again the really bad not feeling well came back and again my pressure was really high. This time I texted hubby about if I should call the dr I quickly got a "Yes" back. I called the dr and they got me in about an hr later with the midwife. Once at the office of course my pressure was back to normal. At first she want me to walk around for awhile see if we could get it to go back up(to see what the reason was), but she started asking questions one being if I've had headaches and I told her how I've been getting lots of them and they last all day.....That sent me to L&D to get monitored. I called hubby right away cuz it was getting really close to time to get N from school and the midwife said I would be there for a few hrs so he'd have to come get M too. Once there I had blood work done, an ultrasound and got monitored, in the end they sent me home after 4hrs, though we did get a little "scare" (the nurses were nervous) cuz my contractions(which I had been having for about a week before that) started getting about 5-10mins apart, but I was only 1cm so they released me. I was told if I had headaches again or my blood pressure went up I was to call again. On Wednesday I was getting little headaches but not to bad, Thursday night they were bad again, but I waited til Friday morning to call(I didn't want to spend the night in L&D unless I was having L).On Friday(the 27th) they got me in right away, and I got my regular dr he looked at me heard about my headaches and sent me right over to L&D to have all the test redone. This time we had a plan though. If all was normal I would do a 24hr urine test at home and bring it back on Sunday, if not I was staying. My dr also told me he would be there in a bit to see the results and check on me. Of cuz this time I didn't bring anything for me to do(not sure what I was thinking!), but hubby was at home in since we knew there was a chance of me going back to L&D. After getting there and redoing all the test, I still had a headache, so I had to stay till at lest 5 when the dr would be back. I started the 24hr test, and hubby came up to drop off my DS and a jacket cuz I was freezing!! At 5pm my dr came in and my headache was still there, though not as bad, he told me I was staying till my headache went away, he didn't want me to go home then end up coming back a few hrs later(plus we weren't sure why I was having them yet though he thought from high blood pressure). If my headache did go away during the night I could go home, but had to come back the next day(saturday) to turn in the test and get monitored till the results came in. About 1.5hrs later my headache was gone so I could go home, but I was to be on bed rest till the next day when I had to turn in my test.
On Saturday at 1pm I headed back to the hospital(this time with my DS, a jacket, and a book~just in case!) After waiting they found some protein in my urine so I was sent home but was told bed rest til my appointment Monday(the 30th) in the morning.
On Monday my dr checked me and I was 2cm and 50%effaced, but cuz of my on and off headaches, and the protein he said he wanted to induce me. At this point I was 38 weeks. We planned it for Wednesday(since that was his day at the hospital) and I would be a bit closer to 39 weeks.
Then it became who's going to watch M and N! We figured out to have Grandpa come in the morning when they were still sleeping, then my friend C come over around 10ish to take over till Grandma could make it which was around 1pm. Then if need be have Grandma stay the night(though we all really didn't think I would make it that long). We also realized that my friend T was off and she remembered me telling her early on how I wish she could get off the day I go into labor so she could help me through it, so she asked if I still wanted her there. Of course I did so her babysitter was able to watch her daughter, so she could be there with me.
On Wednesday(9/1) we got up at 5 so we could be at the hospital at 6am. M ended up waking up needed me at about 4:50am so I covered her back up and gave her kisses then ended up just staying awake, but it was great to see her right before we left. Once we got to the hospital I had blood drawn(yeah I'm a little tired off all the blood work so is my arms!!) They hooked me up made sure L was moving ok and started pitocin about and hr later. My whole plan was to try not to have any pain meds this time which is why I'm so glad T could be there and help. At this point hubby realized we forgot to do some stuff at home and to bring some stuff so I sent him home to take care of that thinking I would be fine alone for an hr. Well when he was gone the dr came in and wanted to brake my water, I was to scared it was going to be like with M and started really hurting and I would have no one to help me through the pain so I said we could wait a bit, so we did. About noonish my contractions started getting pretty strong I wasn't really able talk through them anymore, so they broke my water and amazingly it didn't affect the strength. At too they checked me again and I was 4cm I figured that's not bad I can do this. At around 5 my contractions were really strong and really close so we had them check me again, I figured I was like 8cm maybe 6 at the worst...nope I was still only 4cm. I was totally heart broken, I was in so much pain and keep thinking if I was 6-8 I could keep going, but still only at 4 and had been I can't do it. So I told them to get me Standol and then maybe the epidural about 40mins later. At this point my contractions were really strong and T was having to really talk me through each one while I held on to hubby will everything(poor guys hands!) Once I got the Standol I was still in "pain" but was able to somewhat relax in between. It was a lot different then with M and N, with them once I got Standol I totally went out and slept, this time I could feel close but the contractions kept me awake. Within about 10mins of getting the Standol I told them I wanted the epidural. The nurse had to check me before I could get it and I was now almost 7cm. They prepped me for the epidural which o my sitting up and having the contractions was soooo bad. They had to sent T out for that part so she went down to get a coffee since they told her to come back in about 30mins. I had to lean on hubby and the nurse was right there trying to keep me calm. The whole time I keep telling the poor guy he had to hurry up. I had 3 contractions during it and he had to stop each time. He gave me the little test shot to make sure he had the right spot, and then he let me lay down as he finished up taping it totally up my back and getting the rest of the meds hooked up. As soon as I layed down I totally felt pressure and told the nurse I feel like I need to push. She checked me and I was 10cm and ready! The epidural dr was just about to hook up the rest of the meds and asked her well should I hook this up then and she told him no. She told me not to push(let me tell you that was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do!) and told the desk to call the dr. I was yelling at my poor dr that he better get his butt there, and were was he, yeah I was not liking having to wait! I only took him about 5-7mins but it felt like forever. Once he finally got there he was telling the nurse that she got him a gown and booties that were to small I yelled at him(and I did yell) that he'd have to deal. I pushed 3 times all in one contraction and L was born! At this point T had no idea what was going on she ended up coming in just as L was born. I ended up pretty much not really getting the epidural(or at lest the really meds) I was just a little numb(like when your foot falls asleep when you lay on it to long).For the first time hubby got to cut the cord which was really cool for him. L did have his cord wrapped around his neck, but only once and nothing like N's. I did tear a bit, but the dr called it a skid mark, where most wouldn't give stitches but he did do one just to be safe.Logan Anthony was born at 6:05pm and was 8lbs 7oz and 20inches long. His brother and sister didn't get to see him till the next day cuz by the time hubby left (7:30) it was after visiting hrs(though the nurses said they would let them up) and it was almost bed time. I was a little sad, but they came the next day and M was the cutest. When they came I was still in a hospital gown and she comes in the room looks at me then sees L, then looks at me again realizing it's me goes "MOMMY!!" gives me a little hug and then runs over to L in the little "crib" and says "Baby L" it was so cute! N acted like he cared less, but he would keep coming over to him and watching him.We got to go home the next day(24hrs after delivery). The kids have been great with him. N loves to help with him, he's even tried to read to him once. M is more following and copying N, though she loves to give him his binky. She has been having a little jealousy, if hubby or me are holding L she'll sometimes says she needs that person, and will start crying that she really needs us. Otherwise L is a great baby, he sleeps through a lot which is good having two older siblings. He did end up having to switch formulas the first night at the hospital. I had sent him to the nursery cuz I was shaking soooo bad everytime I got out of the bed and I didn't want to be alone standing, holding him and start shaking. Anyways, it was a good thing, cuz he ended up getting really sick from the formula so the dr switched him and he's been doing great since.

L's Newborn pictureM and N reading to L

A month left

Tomorrow marks me being 35 weeks pregnant! I'm pretty excited and nervous all at the same time. It seems like it took forever to get to this point, but the last week as been flying by which means L will be here in no time. I only have (at the most) 4 weeks left. My dr and I already talked about me being induced at 39 weeks since I had early contractions with both N and M and I would really like my dr to deliver L. I think he also feels bad cuz with M I had the one dr I couldn't stand deliver her. I've had some contractions this time too in fact I'm already 1cm and my cervix is soften which early for me so we'll see.
I can't wait to meet him and see what he looks like, though I'm sure he'll look just like his brother and sister did(you can barely tell them apart in their first pictures). I'm curious about what color hair he'll have and his eye color.
Everything is pretty much ready. I still need to pick up at lest one can of formula and finish packing my hospital bag which is 80% done. O and I need to put the carseat into the truck. There's a few other little things that need to get done, but nothing that we need for the first 2 weeks(ie I need to wipe down the swing, bring the swing into the house, get bouncer cover down from attic)
On other news N has his school orientation on Wednesday we'll get to find out who is teacher is and hopefully where his classroom is and get to meet the teacher. Then next Monday he starts Kindergarten! I'm excited and nervous for him, he seems pretty excited about it(at the moment that is lol). I think I'm more nervous cuz I have so many unanswered questions about school this yr and being the planner I am and being so close to delivering it's a little nerv-racking. Like I want to meet his teacher, find out where to drop him off, were to pick him up, if I need to get him anything else for school(hopefully not since we already had to get a ton!).
Well I'll update everyone hopefully next week for sure about how N's first day was!

30 Weeks!

Yesterday marked me being 30 weeks pregnant. It's pretty exciting and nerve raking at the same time! That means we getting to meet L in 10weeks(probably less), but it also means I have less then 10 weeks to finish my list of things to do for him. The reality of us becoming a family of 5 is also starting to really hit home, I always wanted 4 kids, but I'm still a little in awe that we are going to have 3 kids really soon!

On other news, the whole home school over the summer has gone down hill lol! We have just been hanging out and doing playdates. I tried to do some the second week N was off of school, but they just wanted to color and didn't care about the fact they were making Ee's and Ff's. So I've decided that it was best just to set that aside till school stared again then work with M with it only. Plus, I've been really tired lately the heat has just been sucking the energy right out of me.

Grandpa got the kids this cool water slide with a little pool at the bottom. It's really awesome, but a lot of work, so it's a weekend only thing lol. We got it last weekend and the kids had a ball with it. I have my friends come over with their kids so they could enjoy it too. Saturday I just sat outside in the shade with T, but Sunday my friend C came over with her son and we sat in the pool part which really helped me feel better in the heat. Hopefully we can get it back up this weekend, I got the kids some water balloons to play with in there and some water balls so that should be fun!

Today we went to Walmart and they were setting up all the school supplies. It really hit me that N is going to Kindergarten in just a few weeks! Once we got home I looked up to see if they had the supply list for this yr and they did! Man does he need a lot! I guess it's not that bad it's only about half a page, but it seems like a lot for a 5 yr old! And some of it is so crazy(well at lest for me as a no teacher). One thing is 3 boxes of 24 crayons~why would they need that many crayons? Or 10 glue sticks and a bottle of glue~I guess you need a lot of glue, but 10! It just getting me thinking more and more about him going! I'm so nervous for him! I want him to have a good experience and do good, and so scared I didn't teach him something or he'll be behind in something and I don't want him to be. I guess that's every mom's fear huh!?

Last Few Weeks

We are coming up on the last few days of school so things have been crazy around here. I've totally been slacking on the letter of the week too, I have two weeks to post on...that will be later lol! Talking about those I'm now a week behind o'well, we'll make it up over the summer I'm sure.
For the most part things are going good around here, N's pretty excited about it almost being summer break. I'm excited too cuz then I don't have to go out anymore during the hottest time of the day, but it also means my baby is getting closer to going to kindergarten. His graduation is on Wednesday so is the last day of school, so I'll post all about that. We got him a little gift for graduating, he's done such a great job the last 2.5yrs we are so proud of him. Plus he's been a little hesitant about kindergarten so we are trying to make a big deal about him graduating and moving on, hopefully it helps!

L is moving a lot. He's really active at night or if I lay down, otherwise I'll only feel a kick here and there through the day. Some days I get worried, cuz I haven't felt him for a long time. Not sure if he's just not as active, or if I'm so busy with his brother and sister I can't feel them as well, but he always seems to know when I'm worried and will give me a few kicks to make me feel better.

M is also doing good. She's in full terrible three mood lately. I swear she's worse then N was, the girl doesn't listen half the time, we have lots of time outs throughout the day. She's also been really cling the last month, not even wanting to play at the play area at the malls, not really sure what's up with that, she's so not my shy one.

That's about it for now, I'll post later today or in the next day or so about the letters of the week and Wednesday about N's graduation.

Letter Aa

This week I started M's first week of "school". I'm calling it school very loosely, I'm only doing one project a day, which usually takes about 30mins. We do talk about the letter and color through out the day, but just pointing to her art work and asking her what the letter/color is and what starts with that letter. Anyways, on to our week....
Monday well was nothing, we have play dates on Mondays and by the time we get home it's quite time then time to get N from school, so til school lets out Mondays are no school days.

Tuesday we started out simple I printed out color pages of A and a then let her use crayons and color. I also grabbed her alligator little people and her play apple from her kitchen.

Coloring her A

One mistake I made was had the alligators and apple sitting where she could see them so of course she did like one little scratch of color on each page and was done so she could play with the toys. I also had made a list of some A letters, I did them in green cuz that was the color of the week. After she was done I got the great idea to tape all the art work for the week on to the kids door.

The artwork from Monday with list of words

Wednesday we had friends coming over so we didn't get much done, I had cleaning to do.

Thursday we did the craft projects which I got from this great blog she's got some great ideas! We made an A alligator.

M's A Alligator

And then painted an a red to make an apple. We had to let it dry and I did cut it out we just never finished it....that will be first this Tuesday.

Painting her a to make an apple

Friday we did apples! On Wednesday morning we ran to Walmart and picked up one of each of the types of apples they carried. Which amazingly was 6 different ones! We had Golden Delicious, Granny Smith, Red Delicious, Fuiji, Gala, and Macintosh. I cut each one in half through the centers then cut one half into slices and the other half left alone. I put them all on a plate(except for the Fuiji, which ended up having a huge bug hole in the top of it I didn't notice).

M checking out the different apples

Then I let M try them and look at how all the centers were a little different. She really liked that. After she got to look at all the centers and colors I went and cut up them up so that N and Daddy could have some later.

M trying the Granny Smith

She decided that the whole half of the Golden Delicious was much better

Over all the week went really good I think. I did come up with another idea yesterday. I printed out the same Aa coloring pages I let her color on and painted them the color of the week. While I was doing that I let her paint one too, and use an A sponge I have. I also painted the Bb for this week. After they dried I cut them out and laminated them. I'm taping the letter we are on to the door also, then moving them to the top of the wall in their room so when we are done we will have the whole alphabet up as a little boarder on the wall.

Tuff Week

It's only Wednesday and I'm already looking forward to the week being over! It's just been very draining emotional and physically. First it's been extra hot out so that really drains me and makes me feel so lazy cuz, well I have been lazy cuz I just physically don't have the energy to do much. Then it's Mother's Day week which is always a little hard for me, but this year is the first time I'm pregnant during this week. It's like a double wammy!

I also am looking at doula's this week. I really wanted someone at the birth that could really help me remember to focus and remember all the things to try to help with pain management. hubby's very supportive, but when it comes to me(or the kids) in pain, he just wants us to be better, pain free. Plus, he's always nervous too, just being in the hospital, being a dad again. Anyways, so there really isn't anyone that can also come to the hospital to help, everyone I would want either lives way to far or will be one of the people that can watch the kids when we are at the hospital(which I haven't even figured out all that yet*sigh*). So I thought about a doula, I found two in our area. One I've talked to and she sounds great but it's way more then we can afford. She does have classes that if the second lady is also to much or I don't feel connected to, I'm going to see about at lest me going to the classes. She only has one spot left so I have to decide this week. I don't know it's just a lot, or at lest it feels like a lot of things to think about.

Truthfully, most of the time all I want to do is go crawl in bed till everything is worked out, but that would be never, so I guess that will not work huh!

New Corner

Yesterday~ok really I've been thinking about it for a week now, but yesterday it really hit me. I got this thought, since M didn't get into the pre-k program at the school, and we can't afford a private pre-k program, what am I going to do? I work with her a little here and there on her letters, number, and colors, but nothing really planned, it's more just working with her when we see them or playing. So a few days ago one of the blogs I follow she was talking about homeschooling, which I've hear about(really who hasn't), but I think cuz she's doing it for kindergarten and pre-k, it sort of stuck in my mind. Then yesterday my friend C was saying how she wanted to work with her son more on writing letters cuz he was really getting curves. And it was like BOOM!! homeschooling M! So I started with that looked at one of my mommy sites and found this group of moms that homeschool prek. They gave me lots of great ideas and websites to find craft projects and worksheets. That's when I decided that I would "homeschool" M pre-k. I say "homeschool" like that cuz I don't think how I'm going about it is really true homeschool, or maybe it is? I don't feel it is cuz I'm only going to work with her on a few things and make it pretty light mostly crafts and coloring, maybe a few trips to the store to look at things that go with what we are working on.

My plan!
Each week for the next 4 weeks we are going to work on one letter, number, and color per week. Just doing one project/thing per day that goes with each thing. Then when N is off school(we'll have more time at home) we'll do two letters, one number, and one color per week. N loves craft projects so I know he'll have fun, I'll let him cut his own letters out, make it more challenge for him. I also got both kids 3 ring binders so after they color the letter/numbers they can put then in there so they will have an alphabet/number book by the end of the summer. Once school starts again I'll go back through them with M doing different projects and maybe adding a shape and animal to the week too. I'm going to try and post about our week every Friday or weekend, hopefully to get other people ideas like how I got ideas from other bloggers(I'll post links when I do the projects :)!)

I'm also wanting to try this to see if I can homeschool. N takes after his daddy in learning. He picks things up quickly(most of the time) but he needs to be challenged, and if he's not he loses interest and starts saying he's tired or "acts up"(pretends to be bugs or super heroes). He's starting it already at school now, us and his teachers can tell he's ready for kindergarten, cuz he want to sit and do work he doesn't want to do the little kid songs any more. So we really want to make sure he's challenged in school so he doesn't go down the path like hubby and get himself in trouble. If it starts looking like it we may homeschool him, it's just something we have out there just in case we need it. Thankfully his teacher now realizes what he needs and has already had a meeting with the kindergarten teachers about hopefully getting him in with this one teacher that is harder(challenging for him). Well see, right now he's not really liking school all the time cuz of it~well that and that he's getting a baby brother, he's been wanting to spend a lot of one on one time with mommy and daddy. We think he's trying to get all his time in now cuz with M, she was such a needing baby always wanting to be held, he didn't get a lot of one on one time with me.

Our new addition is....

Yesterday I had the ultrasound to check on the baby make sure everything looked good and measured right. It was also the ultrasound to see what the sex of the baby is.

When we first got there the tech asked us if we wanted to find out the sex hubby and I said yes. Of course I was a little more admit about the yes lol! The tech told us(I think it was more as a pre-warning) that it would still be another 25-30 mins before we would find out since the legs are the last thing she measures. I should say that that morning N didn't not want to go see pictures of the baby, but I told him I really wanted him to go with me, so he went though not very excited about it. So the tech starts gels up my tummy, and then starts looking around. N at this point goes "what's that?" The tech tells him the baby, now he gets excited! He said "that's your baby mommy?"(he's still using the "your baby" lol). M is interested, but the tech hadn't really gotten a good profile picture that you could really see a baby, so M was just copying her brother's oo's and cool's. The tech is going about measuring and labeling things for the dr and then about 10mins in I hear hubby go "That looks like a boy to me!" I was looking at the kids at that moment so I look up at the same time the tech goes "Yep that's a boy!" So I told N "looks like you get your brother", him and daddy high five it was so cute and funny! Needless to say that this little one is just like his brother and wanted to make sure we know right away he was a boy lol! Right after that the tech got a good profile and you could hear M go "look a baby" then she looked at my tummy and goes "mommy the baby's in your tummy?" like she finally understood were this baby that we are always telling her about is. The kids did really good after about 15mins they were getting a little antsy so hubby gave them some candy I had in my purse to keep them entertained. The baby for the most part behaved and the tech was able to get all the measurements without much issue. She did have a little trouble getting a good shot of left side of the baby's heart, cuz of the way he was laying, but she finally got it. The ultrasound only took about 35mins and they schedule it for an hr so that's pretty good I think.
So to conclude we will be adding Logan Anthony to our little family in September! We are so excited!

Then There Was Three

In Sept our little family will be growing to three kids! I'm still a getting over the shock of having three kids by the end of the year.
My whole life I've always wanted 4 kids, hubby didn't really want so many he always said maybe 3. After M he still wasn't sure about having at lest one more like I wanted, but we figured we'd wait a few years and talk about it again. After M turned 2 it seemed like 3 was out of the question. As we found out a few months ago God had other plans lol!

Right now I'm 16 weeks, I'm feeling pretty good, as long as I have lots of little snacks during the day. My biggest "issue" right now is my blood pressure, cuz of being pregnant I can't be on my blood pressure meds so that means I have a higher risk of my pressure dropping and fainting. I've seen my heart dr already and I just have to keep doing what I'm doing, but I also can't stand still for long periods of time(my limit is about 15mins before I feel faint). Right now that's my biggest challenge, I try and do the dishes when there is only a few, and dinners I try and keep simple things that I don't have to stand there and watch very much.

The kids seem pretty excited about the baby. I don't think M full understands yet. I got the baby a "dresser"(it's a three drawer plastic storage thing) and put some of her old toys in one of the drawers, and we talk about how everything in that is for the baby and now she'll say "That's for the baby". N is super cute about it. He always says "your baby", I think cuz his teacher is pregnant too and that's way. We've been talking about where the baby is going to sit in the car the last few days. Yesterday he told me "Mommy I want to sit in the middle so I can watch M and the baby and make sure she doesn't open the door". Then today he told me "Mommy I changed my mind. I think the baby should sit in the middle. I don't want her to open the door and fall out and get hurt." How sweet is that!?

Next friday we find out what we are having I'm so excited I can't wait! We are bring both the kids so that will be fun. N got to come when we found out about M so I wanted to make sure they could come this time too.

Been awhile!

Wow it has been awhile since I blogged! I always think about it when I'm at the store, driving to play dates, but by the time I get to the computer I just get on facebook play my games and get lost, or end up playing wow and getting lost in that lol! I've also been working on some baby blankets to sell on my etsy store one boy and one girl. I think they are really cute!

So lets see this year so far....we are 3months in and it's been a good year crazy lots of surprises, but good.

In January N turned 5, I still can't believe he's 5! He had a nice little party at home with some of his friends, it was Transformer theme again. This year I tried some games let me tell you that was hard, trying to get 3-5 year olds to listen cramped in the house(cuz it had rained that night and the ground was still wet) was ruff. This is way I'm not a teacher lol!

In February, M had her test for school, she did awesome! You may not be able to understand the girl half the time(though shes getting better and has words now) the girl is smart! Her test lasted 2.5hrs cuz she just kept answering the questions right, so they had to keep going. Needless to say she's not in N's class. N was sad about that, but he's better now. So M now goes to "school" two days a week for 30mins-it's just speech and it's with N's speech teacher which is pretty cool.

That brings us to March, which is when M started "school" on Tuesday. And yes I turned the big 3 0 on Monday. Didn't do anything just hung out at home with the kids and hubby, I got to lay around in PJ's all day, and Hubby dropped N off and picked him up from school even went and got Panara soup for dinner-which is what I wanted :)! It was a great day. I still don't feel 30, but I guess that's a good thing right!

Christmas 2009

Since I'm up and haven't gotten around to writing about our Christmas I guess I'll do it now :). We had a great Christmas. The kids as always got tons of toys and spent the whole day playing with them! This year we realized that M's opening style is way different than N's. She opens a present then looks it over enjoying the new toy for a few moments(usually just by looking at it and the pictures on the box) then she'll move on to the next one and repeat. N he ripes off wrapping paper like no ones business(M is also much more "gentle" with the removing of the wrapping) then he'll get excited about he new toy and move on. They had the same number of presents, but N was done and M still had 4 left! N finally asked her if he could help her(at this point she was getting a little tired of opening, which I thought was funny) He pretty much opened the rest of her presents as she looked on riping off piece here and there it was really cute!

N showing me the bakugan that came with this awesome display case
M opening her DS, she didn't really know what it was till I took it out of the box then she was all over it lol!
N and his DS he got a Transformer cover for it too!
This is the point that M was getting tired of opening and just wanted to play see the presents still behind her?!
N helping M unwrap the rest of her presents
N as BumbleBee!
The kids playing their DS' for the first time! Daddy was very excited lol
M really getting into the game.

Lacking in Posts

I've been lacking in the posting again, I know. Really I think about it when I'm just about to fall asleep, some days it's fun stuff, but the last week it hasn't been. Every Christmas since my mom passed I get a little depressed around the Holidays, usually it's around Thanksgiving, and lasts a few weeks, by the time Christmas is close I've got a handle on it. This year has been a good year, I even made it through July pretty good. The last 4 days, have been rough, it's not a terrible depression(I've had it worse before), but I feel it. I'm so excited for Christmas, but so very sad inside too! I miss my mom, I miss my family! I really wish my brother and Sarah could make it down here. Really I wish I could spend one holiday with my brother, I don't even remember the last holiday I got to spend with him was! I'm really glad I got all my Christmas shopping done early, cuz I really don't want to go out.
That's pretty much been life around here. Last week was crazy! M had her normal speech therapy, then we added a new group speech/OT class, plus her OT eval, and the school eval to see where she may be "placed" in April. To top it off we had two birthday parties! It was a good week, but CRAZY!! I know you are wondering...OT eval was good, they want her to go twice a week to work on the small skills she's still behind it, though over all she's pretty much on target. The school eval was good, I was very afraid they would want to place her the next week, but they don't(wipe brow). Unfortunately she's still on the fence about where she'll be placed, it depends on how she test on her over all skills, if her OT "issues" affect her learning then she'll be placed in a full time school('s class, which she already knows the teachers and her brother is there), if not then she'll be in part time school(two or three days a week for a few hrs) I'm still on the fence about which one I feel better about, but it comes down to which will be better for her over all, and how she scores. She'll have that test in Feb some time.

Is school in the future?

I guess at some point M will be going to school right? I'm just not so sure about now! Why am I talking about this you ask? Cuz tomorrow morning we have an appointment to meet with the school district program about where to place M. Right now she's in the Early Steps program, but when she turns 3 the school program takes over. She is over 2.5 now so we have an appointment to see how to transition her into the new program.
I am so beyond nervous, I don't know what you would call it. I half want to cry, half want to curl up in a ball and forget this is about to happen. Why? I'm not 100% sure. I guess you could say cuz I have know clue what they will say, then add in my own fears for her, and what I feel she needs, top that off with not knowing if they can fill what I would love for her to have. N's eval wasn't this bad, I sort of know he would go to a school(the whole 5 full days was a shocker), but I also know that would be best for him and he would love it. Which he does! M, 1yr ago, I though she would be ok with school at 2.5yrs old. Now I'm not so sure, I don't think she'd do good without me for that long. Trust me I think she needs some time away from me and with other kids more, but I don't think she could handle being without me for that long. I know that sounds crazy, but she depends on me for so much, help get her dressed, calm her down.....I just don't know. Then add in that she finally got OT back, how are they going to work that? She really needs it. I'm just so nervous I guess we will see how it goes.

Thanksgiving

Happy Thanksgiving everyone! I hope everyone had a great day, we did. We stayed at home enjoyed our wonderful, beautiful children, had turkey and stuffing(that grandpa made for us), mashed potatoes, and sweet potatoes(that you just reheat in the microwave), rolls, and I did make green bean casserole. Yes it was a very very laid back Thanksgiving, but I'm still so thankful for so much even with my scary(ok it was for me) surgery, and the scary(that turned out to be "ok") heart issue!
I'm thankful for
My wonderful husband that help me heal from the surgery, was my rock when I didn't know what was wrong, and been so supportive in starting my business.
My cute and silly N. Even though the boy knows just how to push my buttons, he also knows how to make me laugh. Everyday he puts me in aw on how much he cares for others, and how smart he is.
My adorable princess M. I'm so so grateful that she's finally talking, and saying the easy words. She still has a ways to go, but I'm just happy she's made it this far.
My little brother, who I love so very much. I'm so happy he's found his love.
My family who I don't get to see half as much as I wish I could.
My best friend, and sister, who is there when I need to talk and always there to help encourage the kids even from far away.
My wonderful in laws, nieces, and nephews for being a wonderful family.
My new sister in law(and her family) you are the best thing for my brother, and I'm so grateful you have all taken him in like you have!
T who understands me so much, and helps us out so we can have date nights. And her kids, without them my kids wouldn't have best friends!
All my friends that let me just vent about stupid stuff and are there for me when I just need to get out of the house and walk around the mall.
N's teachers, who have helped N's speech so, so much, and helped him not be quite so shy, and really made sure not to hold him back with his smarts and wanting to help others.
M's speech teacher, who gave her a test that other's may not have cuz she's so young, but cuz of it, she was able to really help M learn.
My dr who, sent me to the heart dr went there was only one little thing pointing to my heart. Many other drs would have(and did), just dismiss my symptoms. If he hadn't I may still be drained and miserable.
Thank you for everyone in my life you all are so special to me and I'm so thankful for everyone of you!