Tuff Week

It's only Wednesday and I'm already looking forward to the week being over! It's just been very draining emotional and physically. First it's been extra hot out so that really drains me and makes me feel so lazy cuz, well I have been lazy cuz I just physically don't have the energy to do much. Then it's Mother's Day week which is always a little hard for me, but this year is the first time I'm pregnant during this week. It's like a double wammy!

I also am looking at doula's this week. I really wanted someone at the birth that could really help me remember to focus and remember all the things to try to help with pain management. hubby's very supportive, but when it comes to me(or the kids) in pain, he just wants us to be better, pain free. Plus, he's always nervous too, just being in the hospital, being a dad again. Anyways, so there really isn't anyone that can also come to the hospital to help, everyone I would want either lives way to far or will be one of the people that can watch the kids when we are at the hospital(which I haven't even figured out all that yet*sigh*). So I thought about a doula, I found two in our area. One I've talked to and she sounds great but it's way more then we can afford. She does have classes that if the second lady is also to much or I don't feel connected to, I'm going to see about at lest me going to the classes. She only has one spot left so I have to decide this week. I don't know it's just a lot, or at lest it feels like a lot of things to think about.

Truthfully, most of the time all I want to do is go crawl in bed till everything is worked out, but that would be never, so I guess that will not work huh!