Now I Know?

You know how everyone always tells you everything happens for a reason.
I do believe this is true!

Since my Mom passed I've tried to figure out what her reason was. In the past I'm come up with she's my kids guardian angel to help God watch over them. I still believe this is true, but lately I'm starting to think that it's not the only reason. I started thinking about this after I found out a friend lost her Mom this week and I told her if she needed to talk I was here . It got me thinking that it's so I can help other people through the lose of their moms. I have two other friends that have lost their moms and have "helped" them through. I use the word help more cuz I can't think of another word to describe it. I guess it's like helping them along, giving them a shoulder to lean on, letting them know there is a light even if it's not as bright as before, that there is someone that understands.

I know how hard it is. How lost you feel. How it's like you just lost this feeling of being loved so unconditionally. How you never realized how much you needed your mom. How mad you are at God even though you don't really want to be and you know there's a reason why this happened, you just can't help it.

I don't claim to be an expert nor do I want to be. I've always been told that I'm easy to talk to, maybe that's why. I don't know! I don't mind it I'm happy that someone else can feel better from hearing they aren't alone. I wish I had that when I first lost my Mom.

Someday I'm sure there will come a time when it's like THAT'S WHY, but for now, I'll feel a little better cuz of my reasons. Either right or wrong, it will help me make it through for a little while. I guess that's all that really matter.