Welcome to the First One

This is a little look into my world. All about my two beautiful babies and everything that goes on with them and me. At the moment I am trying to potty train my son N who is 2 1/2yrs old. It hasn't been going so well. I've tried about 3 times now and it was just terrible. Each time it would end w/N in tears and me so frustrated. I was trying to do the whole one day training, which has worked w/everything else. So this time around I didn't totally give up, instead we are going the regular way-I guess that is what you would call it. We are using pull ups-which I said I would never do, but hey desperate times call for desperate measures. He will not wear big boy pants so that's the next best thing to being able to feel the wetness. So now I've been trying to take him to the potty every time I change him. Trying being the operative word.

Then we have my little girl named M who is 5 months. She's my little angel she looks like one too. I swear my mom and God sent her to me so I can have an angel to hold all to myself. We just found out about 2 months ago that she has hypertonia-High muscle tone. We are still trying to learn about it. All I have learned so far is that it makes her stiff all the time. Though she has good days and bad. Other than that it's pretty vague from there. I have found 2 other moms that have kids w/this but neither one has emailed me back w/help which makes me a little mad and upset that no one wants to help. I'm sure they were in this spot before. Weren't they this lost? Everything I read is not helpful, and the drs keep telling me, we have to wait and see. And to add to this at the same time we found this out I went part-time and lost my insurance, and my hubby doesn't get his for a few more months. So I also have been trying to get her into state and government programs to help with the appointments. She is also suppose to be getting physical therapy, but cuz of the insurance issue we haven't been able to get that started. But I finally got her into a program called early steps and they are going to help w/the cost of therapy. She will finally start them in the beginning of October.
Well, my world is starting to wake up.