Christmas 2009

Since I'm up and haven't gotten around to writing about our Christmas I guess I'll do it now :). We had a great Christmas. The kids as always got tons of toys and spent the whole day playing with them! This year we realized that M's opening style is way different than N's. She opens a present then looks it over enjoying the new toy for a few moments(usually just by looking at it and the pictures on the box) then she'll move on to the next one and repeat. N he ripes off wrapping paper like no ones business(M is also much more "gentle" with the removing of the wrapping) then he'll get excited about he new toy and move on. They had the same number of presents, but N was done and M still had 4 left! N finally asked her if he could help her(at this point she was getting a little tired of opening, which I thought was funny) He pretty much opened the rest of her presents as she looked on riping off piece here and there it was really cute!

N showing me the bakugan that came with this awesome display case
M opening her DS, she didn't really know what it was till I took it out of the box then she was all over it lol!
N and his DS he got a Transformer cover for it too!
This is the point that M was getting tired of opening and just wanted to play see the presents still behind her?!
N helping M unwrap the rest of her presents
N as BumbleBee!
The kids playing their DS' for the first time! Daddy was very excited lol
M really getting into the game.

Lacking in Posts

I've been lacking in the posting again, I know. Really I think about it when I'm just about to fall asleep, some days it's fun stuff, but the last week it hasn't been. Every Christmas since my mom passed I get a little depressed around the Holidays, usually it's around Thanksgiving, and lasts a few weeks, by the time Christmas is close I've got a handle on it. This year has been a good year, I even made it through July pretty good. The last 4 days, have been rough, it's not a terrible depression(I've had it worse before), but I feel it. I'm so excited for Christmas, but so very sad inside too! I miss my mom, I miss my family! I really wish my brother and Sarah could make it down here. Really I wish I could spend one holiday with my brother, I don't even remember the last holiday I got to spend with him was! I'm really glad I got all my Christmas shopping done early, cuz I really don't want to go out.
That's pretty much been life around here. Last week was crazy! M had her normal speech therapy, then we added a new group speech/OT class, plus her OT eval, and the school eval to see where she may be "placed" in April. To top it off we had two birthday parties! It was a good week, but CRAZY!! I know you are wondering...OT eval was good, they want her to go twice a week to work on the small skills she's still behind it, though over all she's pretty much on target. The school eval was good, I was very afraid they would want to place her the next week, but they don't(wipe brow). Unfortunately she's still on the fence about where she'll be placed, it depends on how she test on her over all skills, if her OT "issues" affect her learning then she'll be placed in a full time school('s class, which she already knows the teachers and her brother is there), if not then she'll be in part time school(two or three days a week for a few hrs) I'm still on the fence about which one I feel better about, but it comes down to which will be better for her over all, and how she scores. She'll have that test in Feb some time.

Is school in the future?

I guess at some point M will be going to school right? I'm just not so sure about now! Why am I talking about this you ask? Cuz tomorrow morning we have an appointment to meet with the school district program about where to place M. Right now she's in the Early Steps program, but when she turns 3 the school program takes over. She is over 2.5 now so we have an appointment to see how to transition her into the new program.
I am so beyond nervous, I don't know what you would call it. I half want to cry, half want to curl up in a ball and forget this is about to happen. Why? I'm not 100% sure. I guess you could say cuz I have know clue what they will say, then add in my own fears for her, and what I feel she needs, top that off with not knowing if they can fill what I would love for her to have. N's eval wasn't this bad, I sort of know he would go to a school(the whole 5 full days was a shocker), but I also know that would be best for him and he would love it. Which he does! M, 1yr ago, I though she would be ok with school at 2.5yrs old. Now I'm not so sure, I don't think she'd do good without me for that long. Trust me I think she needs some time away from me and with other kids more, but I don't think she could handle being without me for that long. I know that sounds crazy, but she depends on me for so much, help get her dressed, calm her down.....I just don't know. Then add in that she finally got OT back, how are they going to work that? She really needs it. I'm just so nervous I guess we will see how it goes.